a case of fatigue.
“when i grow up i want to be a pilot”
“karang bila aku dah besor aku nak jadik juruterbang”
perut aku besor siut.. dah start nampak macam kaki botol, padahal aku tak minum, untuk pengetahuan anda, orang india panggil kaki botol ‘kudhi karan kupe’.. cis, buncit betul. member aku cakap perut aku buncit pasal aku minum banyak sangat air. aku tak tau la sama ada apa yang dia kata tu betul ke tak. malas aku nak dok pikir. jiwa aku tak cukup tenteram skarang untuk pikir pasal benda cam tuh. nak meletup rasanya kepala aku. ISHK!!! angle gambo ni buat aku nampak pendek la. tapi.. aku memang pendek.. hehe
okay.. obviously thats no flight suit, and obviously i don’t even have the physique to be mistaken as one (hopefully that will change soon..heh). just got back from site (of which i shalln’t disclose the location) a few hours ago. and i’m not really in a very good place mentally at the moment. my thoughts are mostly out of sync. there’s still alot to do. i probably smoked more then 2 packs a day in the past few days, and thats a hard to reach number since we aren’t allowed to smoke on the premises. there were so many questions that i could not answer and some many decisions that i could not make. i only wish what i have said there and then were the right words to have been spoken. and i also hope that i don’t land in the hot seat in the next coming days.
looking at my picture i suddenly think of what it would have been like if i was a pilot instead. i’ve seen planes taking-off up close, and every time the landing gear lifts off the ground, i find myself awestruck-ed. how can something so hefty and huge fly off so gently as if weightless in to space? yes, i’m amazed by the feats of people, and appreciate the laws of physics, but in that moment, i feel that there definately a supreme being looking down on us. okay, that was pretty unrelated, but hell i just feel like writing.
we stayed in a resort by the sea, a little run down but, it wasn’t all that bad either. had some awesome food. for two nights straight i had tom yam and rice. yeah, i love rice, perhaps thats why i’m just THAT fat anyhow. i got a parking fine while stopping at a hardware store to buy some supplies. i didn’t know that i needed to use parking coupons on a saturday in that state. bah.. such luck. to make matters worse, someone tried prying into my car boot. if found out after trying to open the boot with my car keys and all i managed to do was spin the lock in place, and the next thing i knew, the lock just popped out of the hole. thank god, they didn’t take anything, perhaps we walked to the car in the nick of time, as my colleagues and I saw a duo walking away from the car when we appeared.
oh, and i think i got a speeding ticket. haha. i was trying to chase down this toyota hatchback on the highway while heading home. i’ve never seen that model here in Malaysia before, and the dude was driving pretty fast. when i finally got beside him, i glanced to the right and saw the policeman pointing his radar gun at me. SIEN.
right now i wish i could whisk her away to somewhere quiet and lay beside her and do nothing, just enjoy the company. thats what i want, but just like what the rolling stones sang..”you can’t always get what you want”.
while i was out of town, i thought about writing about semantics (read design semantics), but i can’t seem to recall the example that i wanted to use.
Monday, April 21st, 2008